What You Really Want for Christmas

Maybe a year of waiting,
a year perhaps
of tending to everyone else’s stuff –
of feeling at times
like you are standing alone on a hill
watching over your flock,
and while you are happy to do it –
grateful to be able to do it –
you see in your reflection
the toll it has taken,
the effect of that wind on your face.

Or maybe you’ve had a year
not of having too much,
but of having too much unshared,
arms tired.
It is exhausting
carrying one’s gifts,
not knowing where to set them down.

Or maybe you’ve had a year
of news dropped on you
you’re still trying to figure out
what your response to it should be,
feeling you ought to know the answer by now,
but there it is every day again, the same puzzling.

What you really want
under the tree
is a break from the free fall
you are in.
You aren’t holding out much hope for it.

All the more reason to come and meet again
those on hills, tending flocks,
those traveling long, bearing gifts
destination unknown (same as you) –
those having news dropped on them
and needing to find their responses,
those who have waited a very, very long time.

All the more reason to light a candle
or let someone else
and to hear again,
bit by bit,
the story.

the chance to rediscover
you aren’t the only one.

There is a spot for you
in the crowd,
a spot that has maybe
gone empty
you feel you know the story too well.

By just such thinking as this
so many are kept in isolation long.
Step out of isolation and into the story, familiar yet new.

* * *

This post first appeared in December 2011. Thank you for reading.

About Marilyn

Reading, thinking, listening, writing and talking about faith, creativity, ESL for refugees, grief and finding the story in a story. Student of Spanish. Foe of procrastination. Cheez-it fan. People person with hermit tendencies or vice-versa. Thank you so much for reading.
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One Response to What You Really Want for Christmas

  1. pastordt says:

    LOVE THIS SO MUCH. Thanks for reposting it, dear Marilyn.


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