Two things I don’t want as the refrains of my life:
“I’m so tired”
“I don’t have enough time.”
I had a friend who said it
which, had it been me,
I’d have taken as a sign
something needs to change.
The second, I understand
but it doesn’t make for good conversation.
We all get the same amount of time.
Fair is fair. Should I put in a claim for more?
There is no shame in saying
“I have other things
I’m paying attention to
and I want to be faithful to attend to them well.”
Having said all this,
I wish now to announce
I am tired and I don’t have enough time.
In other words,
I have turned into the person
I don’t wish to be,
which is never a good situation
in the long term
and must be nipped in the bud.
It’s because of Fall, things starting back up. This was a particularly busy week, starting early, ending late. Next week is shaping up to be another. And there’s way more social interaction than I can bear. Correction: There’s more social interaction than I can bear if I am going to get any writing done. There you go. That’s closer to the truth. There is a delicate balance.
Ann Patchett makes choices about the number of doors she has open in her life. (scroll to end of interview)
Deidra says book writing is a deeply spiritual work, a lesson in remaining present to the moment. A little aside of my topic here, but still, responsibility falls to the writer, not someone else.