Dumping My Blog

pencils at the ready

been thinking it a while –
but is it one more step away from writing?
Or toward it?

I admitted to these very thoughts
while riding to church a few weeks ago
and wouldn’t you know it?
The morning’s passage included
immediately they left their nets.”
I like that.
(Long before Nike’s “just do it”
were the first disciples.
They were more cutting-edge than me.)

So what’s the hold-up?

I will miss the friends I’ve met in cyberspace,
not that I won’t be in cyberspace,
but I think I’ll feel only half-in.
Now that I see that in print,
I realize my thinking on that is wrong.
This hadn’t struck me before.
(This is one reason writers write, says Joan Didion,
to find out what they are thinking.)

I’ve been blogging over a decade, so it’s a hard break,
like parting with a old sweater,
too tattery to be seen in
but there are so many memories attached.
Okay, my blog isn’t that tattered.
Still, sentimentality is often the obstacle to the uncluttered life, is it not?

But mostly the hold-up
is the cry of the platform-builders,
“You must blog.”
Must I?
Did anyone actually say that
or is that how it got twisted in my mind?

I wish to say something fabulously acceptable,
such as,
I’m working on my doctorate
or going to do third-world orphanage work
or donating all my writing parts to a needy person
and so – apologies, apologies – I no longer can blog.

But I don’t have a noble cause to give as excuse.
And my faithful readers do not require it of me.

It is enough to say
I have nothing to say,
that what I have to say,
the topic closest to me right now,
the one I dedicate my peak writing time to,
which is as it should be,
doesn’t belong here,
and I belong where it is.

You are nodding. I know it.

A few times in my life I wondered how to explain to a friend a decision I made, only to discover no explanation was necessary.

About Marilyn

Reading, thinking, listening, writing and talking about faith, creativity, ESL for refugees, grief and finding the story in a story. Student of Spanish. Foe of procrastination. Cheez-it fan. People person with hermit tendencies or vice-versa. Thank you so much for reading.
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11 Responses to Dumping My Blog

  1. Laura Brown says:

    They left their nets. And if I’m not mistaken, there was a time they returned to their nets.

    “I belong where it is.” I’m nodding at that. But I hope you’re not firmly shutting the door here.


  2. Jacki Tanner says:

    I will miss you my cyber friend, I always enjoy reading your snippets.


  3. “…the one I dedicate my peak writing time to,
    which is as it should be,
    doesn’t belong here,
    and I belong where it is.”

    Yes. This. This is why I’m an advocate of time away! But, as will all things, blogging is seasonal. Perhaps there will be a season when it’s time to return. And I hope you stay open to the possibility.


  4. Sharon O says:

    I really like your blog… but you must do what you feel is good for you. I will miss it.


  5. pastordt says:

    I’m with Laura. I get this, but I hope you’ll just let this space be fallow for a while and then come on back. I love to read whatever you put here.


  6. Juliana says:

    I’ve been letting this marinate since you posted it yesterday. And you are right, I do understand. And I will miss you – your writing has touched my life in so many ways. And for your writing to do that you must be where it is – and not everything is intended for the internet! I hope that you will leave your blog up – I point people to the content and come back to it myself as well.

    So consider yourself as having received a big hug from me and know that you are loved (as is your work).


  7. bethhavey says:

    Hi Marilyn, I understand your various arguments; maybe take a few weeks off, but I hope you don’t just walk away. I try to post once a week. Today I won’t make it because of other writing commitments. But building an audience takes a lot of work. And yet maybe that isn’t a priority for you. I think an interchange between bloggers works really well. But I think maybe you would rather write your poetry and I know you help lots of people. That’s why I haven’t heard from you lately. I hope life is good, Beth


  8. Marilyn says:

    Since it appears I have this domain name another year, I’ve decided to let the blog sit fallow, as Diane put it and Laura suggested.

    Good to hear from you all!


  9. Belinda says:

    I’m a few days late to the conversation. This is one of two blogs I always read because it feels like a friend lives here. Actually that’s how I feel about the other blog I always read. Maybe there’s something there to ponder!. I believe we should follow our hearts in freedom, but I hope you leave the blog up Marilyn, and just write when the moment strikes. I promise that I for one will celebrate every word from you, even if they are months apart. Hugs!


  10. Yes, I’m nodding. I’m sad, but I understand.

    Please, please, keep commenting. The one you left me yesterday Made My Day.


  11. Marilyn – I’m so sorry I missed this. Maybe the time it took me to get over here is part of the reason that you are leaving blogging behind. There’s so much distraction for all of us. It’s hard to know where to really turn our attention. You have been such a blessing. I’ll look for you in other places.


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