Other People’s Dreams

bikes at rest
Yet another philosophical maelstrom. I’m sure to come to the end of them soon!

I give up chasing other people’s dreams
when I realize I’ve been doing it.

People make suggestions.
Sure. Sounds good.
I’ll give it a try.

Next thing I know I’m enslaved.
It’s running my life.

Do I regret
turning down her offer?
“You can use me as a reference
if you want to get on the circuit.
Just drop my name. People know me.”

Do I regret it,
turning inside-out
at the thought of the exposure
and saying,
“Thank you anyway, but I don’t think I’ll pursue that”?

Was that a mistake?
Hard to say.

But I remember
a few years ago
in a grocery-store chat,
someone dear and I
agreed:
We make the best decision we can
with the information we have
and thereafter let it go.

I think that’s right.

And I think the person
who offered the reference
saw my potential
to live her dream.

She shrugged and accepted it,
but didn’t understand.

And while I might have enjoyed it,
some parts anyway,
no, I don’t regret my decision.

* * *

image: “Bikes at Rest” by Marilyn….has absolutely nothing to do with this post. 🙂

About Marilyn

Reading, thinking, listening, writing and talking about faith, creativity, ESL for refugees, grief and finding the story in a story. Student of Spanish. Foe of procrastination. Cheez-it fan. People person with hermit tendencies or vice-versa. Thank you so much for reading.
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2 Responses to Other People’s Dreams

  1. Beth Havey says:

    I really like this, Marilyn. I think it’s very true and that many of us have experienced it. Beth

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  2. Belinda says:

    I am a believer in going with your gut; obeying the physical warnings and listening to the still small voice. You did, and you would more likely regret it if you hadn’t! 🙂 Good for you for not caving to pressure. Your instincts were good for you, and that’s what counts.

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