Blowing the Dust Off

HE SWEEPS the dusting of snow.
I blow the dust off the scale. Also a manuscript.

I’m tackling the FORMLESS this year and the first act appears to be blowing the dust off. I gather words out of a thought-swirl, capture them, hoping they’ll make sense. It feels good to start. But I find in my computer I’ve already written 30 chapters. When was that? I’d completely forgotten! It’s amazing just how far things can fall off the radar screen.

I cringe at the old words. It’s a writer thing, hating the sound of our own voices. The key is to find the gems buried in the mess and try again to sculpt a setting for them, one that is accessible.

In two sentences I have just equated writing to song and sculpture. Not that crazy, I guess. All art shares this: Something to be expressed and an endeavor to express it.

In this, I contend every person is an artist. Everyone has something to express and seeks a way to express it. I hear it in everyone I know, even those who would no more call themselves artists than birds.

But I digress….

IT TAKES GUTS to go back and read old words, to hear the sound of a voice that grates, especially one’s own.

But I am not without guts.
I am willing to blow the dust off. (Admittedly, it has taken a week to decide this and go back and look at them again.)

* * *

On the kitchen counter sit Christmas cards received, hung, taken down. Nearby, 2 cards that arrived for Ma from people I didn’t know about. I saved the addresses and will today write to let them know. Mom is gone.

I will do it today before today turns into June or July.
It’ll be the most important writing done today.
And then….I will go blow more dust off things.

About Marilyn

Reading, thinking, listening, writing and talking about faith, creativity, ESL for refugees, grief and finding the story in a story. Student of Spanish. Foe of procrastination. Cheez-it fan. People person with hermit tendencies or vice-versa. Thank you so much for reading.
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2 Responses to Blowing the Dust Off

  1. Good for you!

    Go, girl, go!


  2. laura says:

    I’m proud of you for tackling the formless! Sometimes, I think, it’s harder to go back over old words and shine them up in your growing voice. I’ll be rooting for you in this (and praying).

    Thank you for your sweet words over at the Wellspring about my little rant. Some days, God struggles inside of me and I fight against all that formless stuff too. Good to know I don’t travel alone :).


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