In MAY 2008 I launched this blog with the idea of writing about taking things one-step-at-a-time. I thought I had a lot of material on the subject.
But then something unexpected happened.
Following a routine physical, my husband was diagnosed with CHRONIC LYMPHOCYTIC LEUKEMIA.* Suddenly, we were in the whirlwind of diagnosis, getting our heads around the news and resculpting our daily lives to accommodate the treatment schedule.
I cut or reworked several commitments, dumped one long-running blog and really wasn’t sure what to do with this blog. I was only 25-30 posts into it, and loved it, but I wondered…..
How would I ever be able to focus on writing about taking things one step at a time while adjusting to and dealing with this?
I was about to get a master class on the subject at hand.
Dealing with a grief
is more about taking things one step at a time
than just about anything else in the world!
I kept the blog.
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When Wally was first diagnosed, I didn’t mention it here because I thought it best to let him tell his own news WHERE he wanted and TO WHOM he wanted and HOW he wanted and in the TIMING that worked best for him, and I think he made great choices in that. Now that some time has passed and also the initial treatment season (his LAST treatment was on Christmas Eve day 2008!) we’re fine with it being more widely known as it might be something I need to refer to from time to time.
The landscape in front of us is strewn with unknowns, yes, but then that’s always true. It’s just our awareness of it that changes. As always, the best way to walk it is one step at a time.
I face the same obstacles to forward movement now as before. Only the particulars have changed. So I’m continuing on in my quest to identify and overcome obstacles. I am pressing on. Gently, of course, but steadily.
*Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia claims over 4,000 lives a year in the U.S. There are slow, moderate and aggressive forms and it is no longer considered solely an old person’s disease.